2017 | Movies and Television Wrap Up

I don’t know why, but I’ve kept track of this stuff since my high school journals. Possibly because I love lists.

I watched A LOT of Law and Order:SVU, like a lot. I’m not ashamed. (Ha!) I also watched way too much of the Hallmark Channel in the month of December, and rewatched a lot of movies,  but didn’t really make note of whether it’s a rewatch or not. If they’re older movies then most likely that’s the category they fall under.

Other things I loved this year:

  1. A Series of Unfortunate Events (1)
  2. Crazy Ex Girlfriend (1–2)
  3. The Great British Bakeoff(1-4)
  4. Moana
  5. The Edge of Seventeen
  6. Beauty and the Beast (2017)
  7. Anne with an E
  8. Father Brown (1-3)
  9. Younger (1-4)
  10. Wonder Woman
  11. Demi Lovatos Simply Complicated documentary
  12. Stranger Things (2)
  13. Murder on the Orient Express(2017)
  14. Big Little Lies
  15. A Christmas Prince

Full List below if you are interested.


Penelope (old favorite)

The Longest Ride

Miracles From Heaven (cried through pretty much the whole thing)



Something Borrowed

21 Jumpstreet

The Boss

A Series of Unfortunate Events Season 1

Beware the Slenderman:HBO Documentary

Now You See Me 2

The Girl On the Train


Crazy Ex-Girlfriend season 1

The Investigator: British Crime Story

American Crime Story: The People VS. Oj Simpson

Two Weeks Notice

Fifty Shades Darker (theater)

Killer Legend (documentary)

Crazy Ex Girlfriend season 2

Death Comes to Pemberley

The Bletchley Circle Series 1-2


The Great British Bakeoff Series 1-3

Mike and Dave Need Wedding Dates

Crimson Peak

10 Cloverfield Lane

How to Be Single

Central Intelligence

Doctor Strange



Harry Potter and the Priosner of Azkaban


The Edge of Seventeen


Pete’s Dragon


Vampire Diaries Season 1

Beauty and the Beast(2017) (theater)


Law and Order: SVU season 1-3

The Fate of the Furious (theater)

Fast and Furious

Fast Five

Law and Order: SVU Season 4-6


Patriots Day

Vampire Diaries Season 2

Pirates of the Caribbean

Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man’s Chest

Pirates of the Caribbean: At Worlds End

13 Reasons Why Season 1

Riverdale Season 1


Law and Order: season 7

Before I Fall

Sherlock Holmes series 4(BBC)

Mommy Dead and Dearest

The Keepers ( Netflix original)

Beauty and the Beast

A Dogs Purpose

La La Land

The Accountant

Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt Season 3

Anne with an E season 1

The Flash Season 3

Father Brown Season 1-3


Rick and Morty Season 1-2

Father Brown Season 4-5

Varsity Blues

iZombie season 3


Boss Baby

Ice Princess

Power Rangers

Younger Season one


Younger Season 2

The Dark Tower (theater)

Star Wars: Rogue One

The Circle


Younger Season 3

Bobs Burgers season 1-5

Law and Order SVU: Season 8-10



Law and Order Season 11-12

Bobs Burgers 6

The Little Mermaid

Mary Poppins

Fuller House season 3


Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix

Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1 and 2

Will and Grace Season 1-2

Law and Order Season 13

Captain Underpants

Wonder Woman


Transformers: The Last Knight

Wonder Woman

Hotel Transylvania 2

Baby Driver

Demi Lovato: Simply Complicated

Hocus Pocus

Sleepy Hollow

Garfield Holiday Specials

Stranger Things 2


The Spirit Of Christmas

The Big Family Cooking Show

The Great British Bake-off Series 4

The Christmas Secret

Murder on the Orient Express (theater)

Engaging Father Christmas

Journey Back to Christmas (Hallmark)

Operation Christmas (Hallmark)

Muppet Christmas Carol

Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Men Tell No Tales

Toy Story

Toy Story 2

The Christmas Note

The Christmas Train

Call the Midwife Season 6


Sleepless in Seattle

Jingle All the Way

Little Women

Christmas at Holly Lodge(Hallmark)

Broadchurch Season 3

Home Alone

Pearl Harbor

The Grinch

A Christmas Prince

Guardians of the Galaxy 2

Big Little Lies

The Santa Clause 1 & 2

Every Christmas Has A Story

When Calls the Heart Season 1-3

Fuller House Season 3 Part 2


Shows I watched Weekly

This Is Us, The Middle, Last Man Standing, Supernatural, Ghost Adventures, Kids Baking Championship, Fixer Upper, , Once Upon A Time, Game is Thrones, Outlander

Podcast- S*Town, My Favorite Murder


2018 Popsugar Reading Challenge

I don’t really make it a secret that I love reading. Every year I try to do the Popsugar Challenge and fail, so this year I decided to pick out all my books before the new year even started. I also made a point to pick mostly from books I already own. There are a few I will get from the library. Below are the topics, and my choices!

  1. A Book made into a movie you’ve already seen: Me Before You – Jojo Moyes (Normally I try to read the book before the movie, but that didn’t happen in this case. Also when I see the movie before reading it, I often have trouble reading the book. This topic may be a little hard for me.)
  2. True Crime: After the Eclipse – Sarah Perry (Or Columbine – Dave Cullen)
  3. The Next Book in a Series You Started: Beautiful Darkness: Kami Garcia and Margaret Stohl
  4. A Book Involving a Heist: Six of Crows – Leigh Bardugo
  5. Nordic Noir: The Snowman – Jo Nesbo
  6. A Novel Based on a Real Person: My Lady Jane – Cynthia Hand
  7. A Book Set in a Country that Fascinates You: Beautiful Ruins – Jess Walter
  8.  A Book with a Time of Day in the Title: Emma in the Night – Wendy Walker
  9. A Book About a Villain or Antihero: Heartless – Marissa Meyer
  10. A About Death or Grief: Squid’s Grief – DK Mok
  11. A Book with a Female Author Who Uses a Male Pseudonym:  If J.K. Rowling releases her new Comoran Strike book I will do that one, but if not I will do Naked in Death by J.D. Robb
  12. A Book with an LGBTQ+ protagonist: Simon Vs. the Homosapiens Agenda – Becky Albertalli (bonus this is going to be a movie next year)
  13. A Book that is also a Stage Play or Musical:  Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them (Original Screenplay) – J.K. Rowling
  14. A book by an author of a different ethnicity than you: Little Fires Everywhere – Celeste Ng
  15. A book about feminism: Moxie – Jennifer Mathieu
  16. A book about mental health: The Impossible Knife of Memory – Laurie Halse Anderson
  17. A book you borrowed or that was given to you as a gift: The Circle – Sara B. Elfgren & Mats Strandberg/ Lost in Austen: Create your own Jane Austen Adventure – Emma Campbell (these were both given to me as gifts from my Swedish relative.)
  18. A book by two authors: The Royal We – Heather Cocks & Jessica Morgan
  19. A book involving a sport: Beartown – Fredrik Backman
  20. A book by a local author: The Chemist – Stephanie Meyer
  21. A book with your favorite color in the title: The Mystery of the Blue Train – Agatha Christie/Court of Thorn and Roses – Sarah J. Maas
  22. A book with alliteration in the title: Maniac Magee – Jerry Spinelli
  23. A book about time travel: Drums of Autumn(4rth Outlander book) – Diana Gabaldon
  24. A book with a weather element in the title: The Winter Sea – Susanna Kearsley
  25. A book set at sea: The Woman in Cabin 10 – Ruth Ware
  26. A book with an animal in the title: The Magician’s Elephant – Kate DiCamillo
  27. A book set on a different planet: The Sparrow – Susanna Kearsley
  28. A Book with a song lyrics in the title: The Hate U Give – Angie Thomas
  29. A book about or set on Halloween: Something Wicked This Way Comes or The Halloween Tree both by Ray Bradbury
  30. A book with characters who are twins: Sisterland – Curtis Sittenfeld
  31. A book mentioned in another book: I don’t have this one picked out yet, as I’m going to just pick one from one of the books I read along the way.
  32. A book from a celebrity book club: I believe I’m going to do the Rules of Magic by Alice Hoffman, however I’m going to wait a little bit and see what else Reese Witherspoon picks.(Or possibly Emma Watson)
  33. A childhood classic you’ve never read: Where the Red Fern Grows – Wilson Rawls or The Book of Three – Lloyd Alexander or the Betsy Tacy books by Maud Hart Lovelace
  34. A book thats published in 2018: I’m also waiting to pick this later in the year.
  35. A past Goodreads Choice Awards Winner: Life After Life – Kate Atkinson
  36. A book set in the decade you were born in: The Marriage Plot – Jeffrey Eugenides
  37. A book you meant to read in 2017 but didn’t get to: Also left open for choice.
  38. A book with an ugly cover: I kind of had trouble with this one as if it’s ugly I tend to pass it by. I chose one that was just sort of boring instead. So I picked Magpie Murders by Anthony Horowitz.
  39. A book that involves a bookstore or library: The Bookshop on the Corner – Jenny Colgan
  40. Your favorite prompt from the 2015,2016 or 2017 POPSUGAR Reading Challenge: I chose a book of short stories from the 2015 Reading Challenge – Uncommon Type by Tom Hanks

I haven’t decided if I will do the advanced yet mostly because I want leave open books for my bookclub, and if anything comes out that I want to read or if I want to reread anything!

Canvas, Unfinished


I’ve felt awkward.

Even at thirty-five,
I still feel unpolished.

I don’t belong in my skin.
Someone calls me beautiful,
on a regular basis.
My son still sees me,
Through innocent eyes.

An unfinished canvas.

To me though,
My mind,
My soul,
My body,
feels ungraceful.

There’s still work to do.

I’m stumbling,
My Life,
In awkwardness.

January Reads

  1. Scrappy Little Nobody – Anna Kendrick
  2. Carry On Warrior – Glennon Doyle Melto
  3. Year of Yes – Shonda Rhimes
  4. The Creeping – Alexandra Sirowy
  5. In Cold Blood – Truman Capote
  6. Wonder – R.J. Palacio
  7. Cream Puff Murder – JoAnne Fluke (audiobook/reread)
  8. Agatha Raisin and the Witch of Wyckhadden – M.C. Beaton (audiobook)


I read a lot of nonfiction this month, which isn’t my usual go to books. I prefer fiction. My favorite of those was Shonda Rhimes book. I’m an introvert like her, and like her i always find no easier to say then yes. The book just really resonated in me, and gave me the lift I needed to start finding my own way. My least favorite was In Cold Blood, which I found the book to be really interesting to read it was just a little slow for me. Also the descriptions in the beginning were unnerving since this book was a true crime book.

I loved Wonder, there were times when it was heart breaking, and other times where it made me smile. The ending was my favorite. I felt pretty meh about The Creeping. There were definitly times where it was pretty creepy. At one point I was reading it in the dark with my book light since everyone else was asleep. I was pretty creeped out by it and had to put it down until the morning. The reason it fell short for me was because of the ending. It felt way to obvious through most of the book on where it was going. The other fact of Stella’s not really having any present parental units is just way to convenient of a plot line. I’m pretty tired of that. I also couldn’t stand her best friend Zoe, but I guess she wasn’t really meant to be all that likeable.

I listened to two audiobooks this month. I usually listen to them to go to bed at night so I like to listen to cozy murder mysteries or books that are fluff. I’ve already read all the Hannah Swensen books, and they’re full of fluff, and perfect for me to fall asleep too. I listen more now for the stories of the characters then the actual mystery part. The other book I listened to was the 9th book in the Agatha Raisin series. It was as usual funny, and better at the mystery telling part.

I’ve started Where’d you Go Bernadette, but this month I’ve been kind of tired from reading. I watched the entire first season of Crazy Ex-Girlfriend instead. I LOVED that show, and i can’t wait for season two to show up on February 11.

That’s it for now.

How I Feel About Being a Stay At Home Mom

I read a lot of articles and satire articles about what it’s like to be a stay at home mom. I am one so therefore I relate to them. 

They are often about how it’s tiring and rewarding all at the same time. That 4PM is kind of an evil hour, and it’s a “please bring me some wine hour”. I don’t really like wine unless it’s Rosé. If the day has been kind of bad then I’m more of a “please bring me some Red’s Apple ale, or Rum and Coke.” More likely though I’ll just beg to check out early, and go to bed at 7:30 PM. I’m always happy when my husband walks through the door regardless of how the day went though, probably a little bit more on bad days.

Then this morning I was lying in bed dozing before I actually had to get up. It’s that magic hour where everything is quiet, and I don’t have to quite get myself going. As I was lying there I suddenly thought to myself, “I like being home.” I’ve always liked being home. It’s something a lot of people don’t understand. I don’t actually care if I don’t make it out the door on some days. I don’t feel crazy if I don’t talk to an adult until almost 6pm.

If I weren’t a stay at home Mom I’d still want a job where I had to do very little interacting. In fact the job I had before I had my son I spent most of it behind a computer monitor, and most of my conversations were via email. I wasn’t fond of that job, but I liked that I had very little interaction with the public. It was all interoffice, and I absolutely loved my coworkers. I was good at it too, and so that also made me feel good about it. At the end of the day though, I’d rather be at home in my pajamas.

.There are days where I am running around doing errands, going to the gym, house chores, playing with my kid, and sometimes I’m just present with him. I always shower at night, and so I don’t fall into the non-showering spectrum of being a stay at home mom. Then there are those days where I really do watch TV all day because I’m exhausted.

I like being a stay at home mom. It’s hard. I complain a lot. Especially when my kid has turned into a threenager in more ways then one. (I.E. the power struggle with a toddler is real.) It is tough. Some days end in crying. Some days as I said before end early and I go to bed at 7:30 because I can’t imagine facing the day any more. Some days can be wonderful. Some days are full of good conversation. They are full of laughter, and end with a good book, movie or This Is Us. I write all the different kinds of days down in my journal. It’s good to have the bad so you can appreciate the good. It helps to see what you can truly be grateful for.

If I were to really get down to the nitty gritty of it all, being home is easier on me for my generalized anxiety disorder. I knew a long time ago I wanted to be a stay at home mom if it was ever going to be possible. It is hard to be a mom with anxiety and some times depression. I’ve learned how to function with it, but it can still be hard.

I tried working part time while being a mom, and I found I was more stressed and anxious.  It wasn’t greener on the other side for me. I felt like I was missing things with my just turned one year old. He was learning so much, and I wanted to be there.  So we made the decision that I would go back to being home with him. It was the best decision I ever made for myself. I wouldn’t change it.

I don’t just like being a stay home mom. I love it, even with all the hardships that come along with it.

Building Up

If I were being honest, aside from my family*, I often feel lonely. Sometimes even alone.

I have friends. I get to see them sometimes. I know they care and love me, but as you get older every day life begins to happen. We’re not always in the same place in life, and we struggle with things differently. I Know I can talk to them at any time, but thing is…

The thing IS;

Well back when I first had my son I was fine. I was happy. I loved being his mama. It was my world. I didn’t know. I didn’t know there was a whole outside to this little world that I was acquainted with.

Back then the worst thing would have been spilling my large Diet Coke from McDonald’s. I probably would have cried, ok exaggerating here. I wouldn’t have cried, but it sure would have made the day feel sour.

Now when I spill it, I see it as a thing. I see it as something that while I’m annoyed about, I am just numb to it. I say oh shit, and then clean it up, and hope my kid doesn’t start running around saying “oh shit”. I’m a little sad because I only have half of it left, but it doesn’t matter

I’ve lost far greater things.

Of course I texted a couple people about the incident, but not because I was upset about it. I texted them because I actually thought to myself and saw it happening as I was walking in holding it in a precarious manner. I didn’t spill it in the way I visualized. I spilled it in a completely different way. I said to My son”well that was weird”.

He laughed. I laughed, and said “see we all spill things sometimes, even mama.” Then I cleaned it up and was annoyed because uh it was soda from McDonald’s. They have the most delicious soda ever.

But I brushed it off, because I’ve felt worse.

I don’t mean to take away from anyone that doesn’t know what I’m talking about. I can’t degrade anyone’s pain. We are all struggling with something some days. It’s just some days I feel awfully lonely. I struggle.

I struggle because even though I know I have people that care about what happens to me, but I am still genuinely afraid of rejection.

I’m afraid to ask to make plans. I’d  blame it on being an introvert, but also I just get anxious about everything.

I know a lot of this is my fault. I closed in on myself. I didn’t want to care. I wanted to take an eternal nap, or watch every single episode of The Middle in an entire week.

I’m trying now though, taking baby steps, and they frighten me. I feel lonely. I don’t know how to begin to try again. I don’t know where I stand

I just have to keep building up again.

*the one I grew up with, and the one I married in to.

That One Time I was a Party Girl

That title might be a little misleading, except it’s exactly what it is. It was the one day I where I drank my weight in alcohol. That may be a bit of an exaggeration though.

First though this involves my cousin. She is my best friend, my person, the Christina to my Meredith, and the sister I never had. I will always refer to her as my luff from now in any story where I talk about her. Now that that’s out of the way I can start my story.

Timehop and Facebook are reminding me that this not so long ago I had boarded a plane the day before to go to Seattle, Wa. I’ve been going to Seattle since I was 8 so it’s like a second home to me. It’s my favorite place, and feels like my happy place whenever I go there.

In fact when I board the plane to go home while I miss my bed, and my friends I still wish I could stay a few more days, weeks, months….forever.

I went with just my mom, and left my husband home. We had only been married 8 months, but my mom had gotten me a really good deal on a plane ticket to go with her. I believe this was the first time I got to see my Aunt and Uncles new house that we often refer to as the castle. I mean it’s straight up like a dream home, and the view is phenomenal. Like you’re gazing out the kitchen window and you can see the city off in the distance, and then you turn and look in another direction and you see Mt. Rainier, it’s the perfect view to see it when it finally erupts. I kid.

This trip though I still got to stay at my Grandma’s house a few nights because she hadn’t sold it yet. Ugh I miss my Grandma’s house terribly. It felt like the end of era when she finally sold it later that year. I’m babbling. I’m reminiscing. I could go on.

According to Facebook though, I had woken up in my luff’s apartment on Mercer Island. She doesn’t live there anymore, and in fact SO MUCH has changed since then. This apartment was one of my favorite places she lived in. She was on the upper level, and she had a great view looking out of her tiny little balcony. I remember drinking tea, and watching it snow.

On Facebook it says “It appears that no matter where I sleep, I am to be woken up by a cat that wants to sit on me.”

That can only be Mila, and I vividly remember her staring at me.

Later that day we drove over to the castle so I could finally see it, and then we drove over to the golf course to see my other cousin who I’ll refer to as Boy. Partly because that is what one of my other cousin’s always called him. It’s pretty fitting for him too because he’s the youngest of us all. He was a bartender at the restaurant at the top of the hill of the golf course. I guess this is where the story really begins. I mean does it? I don’t know.

We started drinking there around 4:15 PM. Boy made us shots called Lemon Drops, because we told him to concoct something and surprise us. They were delicious. Then we had some more. Then we went back to her apartment….where I think we had more to drink. I honestly can’t remember.

The thing I remember next is going to this Irish Bar that we had been going to since circa 2009 I think. I don’t know whenever my luff had turned 21 that’s when we started going there, and we drank normal civilized people all the other times. This bar had a little Irish guy as the bar tender. He might take offense to me referring him as little… hmmm. I don’t care I’ll never see him again because I think I heard he got fired.

My luff convinced me to get some kind of spinach and avocado dip that had shrimp in it. I don’t like shrimp. I don’t like much sea food in general, except Salmon. Salmon is delicious especially when baked. I also like a good Tuna Fish Sandwhich, but shrimp blech. I let her eat most of it. I feel like there must have been some kind of other food but I don’t know. Maybe French fries? Maybe a salad? Do Irish Carbombs count as food??? Because that’s what I consumed.

This is about the time that the little Irish Bar Tender thought it would be awesome to get me drunk. I wasn’t driving so he didn’t care. So my drinks….were all rum and maybe a trickle of coke, just to give it color. I was so drunk that I had a brilliant idea. You only have these kinds of brilliant ideas when you stumble off the bar stool. This idea was “you know what we should do?!?! We should smoke weed!”

Seriously this was my first time smoking weed. I had tried cigarettes when I was like 20, and never did that again because I ended up with the worst migraine ever. (Well at least one of the top ten worst ones. I get them pretty regularly).

So here I was totally drunk, and then I smoked weed. My luff convinced me we should watch this movie called MacGruber because I said it looked kind of awful. She wanted to prove me wrong. I don’t remember any of it. I remember suddenly I couldn’t see straight, and I remember walking possibly running to the bathroom. I shut the door and then spent at least 30 minutes to an hour sitting by porcelain throne. So in my opinion MacGruber was not very good.

The next day she dragged me through Seattle super hung over so that we could go to the aquarium down at the water. The steps to Pikes Market are still my nemesis. At least there were cute Otters to see. (Seriously if I could have one for a pet I totally would.) Maybe one day I’ll run about and down them with the Rocky Theme blaring on my iPod. I refused to go out that night or touch a drop of alcohol. instead we sat lazing around drinking tea and watch The Office on Netflix.

Moral of the story guys….don’t drink and smoke weed, or at least I won’t drink and smoke weed. I will also, never have Irish Carbombs again. NEVER EVER.

Epilogue….I’ve never “partied” like that again.  I’m getting too old for that shit.